So along with seeking out people that may be able to use our help, I've also been doing searches on Google that someone might do who is contemplating suicide. I can't help but think SOMEHOW our blog will appear on the first few pages, but of course it hasn't so far...
But to get to the point, I've found these great sites that are on the first few pages of my Google searches. This one is awesome:)
http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/
Sadly, I also found what appears to be a site created by a person with a sick sadistic fantasy of watching people kill themselves. (They repeatedly ask for videos as they are urging their readers to shoot themselves, hang themselves, etc.) They are, in my opinion, lower than murderers and slugs. Please don't listen to these people. They are sick in the head, and they do NOT have your best interests in mind.
And it's breaking dawn once again... I'm going to have even MORE trouble getting to sleep now, thanks to that sick freak. I'm trying to think of some twisted way to serve justice to the author of that site... But I just can't think of any... Yet. I'll sleep on it:)
If you or someone you know is suicidal, call 1-800-273-8255 (1-800-273-TALK)
ReplyDeletei have attempted sucide three times, im 14, young carer,bullied, no friends, deressed mother, disabled sister, no qway forward, slashed my wrists in hot water, over dosed, slashed my arteeries, still cut my arms thanks so much sites like this, i'm still trying but this stuff slows it down
ReplyDeleteBy "sites like this" I'm hoping you mean this blog or the link and not the sick freak I previously mentioned. I'm thinking you meant this one or the link. LOL. (Sorry, I get a LOT of people that are angry with me for interfering and actually LIKE sites made by sick freaks like that... Still thinking of a way to serve justice to that asshole ;D)
ReplyDeletePlease tell me if you need any help. I was 14 and WANTED to do all that stuff, but I couldn't find a gun and was way too chicken to try anything like that...
I can sort of empathize with you... My mom is depressed, I got bullied ALL my life until I was in 7th Grade, didn't have any friends (or so it seemed at the time) and my mother has major depression and has a few minor disabilities I have to help her with... And let me tell you, that crap really wears off on you! Two depressed people in a house is never a good equation... Add someone in pain or someone that constantly needs help and it can lead to a VERY bad experience. Best thing to do is GET OUT of the house and don't listen to ANY depressing thing you mom says. Don't say "I'm not listening to you," beacause that will only egg her on. Just act like you're listening but do NOT take any of it to heart and try to get out of the house as much as possible. If you can get a counselor, do. Tell them EVERYTHING. If you have had a bad experience with a counselor, try another agency. I've had 4 counselors in my life- all wonderful, helpful people, but I know quite a few people that have had BAD experiences and automatically swear ALL counselors are bad. NOT true!
I DID find a way forward, and it was in the most unexpected place! Really, all it took was something to make me realize that I DO have a life that I CAN do SOMETHING with and make MYSELF happy... It's a way of thinking that takes an "epiphany" of sorts to find a way out. In most cases, there's no "way out" of situations like yours- simply a way to cope with it effectively. You might be thinking "Well, this is too Goddamn much to cope with!!" Not to belittle your situation, but people learn to cope with THE MOST TERRIBLE situations you could possibly imagine. It's possible!!
And if you're cutting, I know it's hard to stop, but please try. Your attitude needs to be "I want to take care of myself," not "I want to cut myself into little peices." Try your best to find another way to deal with your pain. People cut for different reasons- sometimes to punish themselves, sometimes for a desperate effort to gain control in their lives, sometimes for just a release. Whatever reason you do it for, it's NOT healthy. You need to have an attitude that's ALL about taking care of and loving yourself, because THAT is the attitude that will help you most... Of course, this is easier said than done. It took me 4 or 5 years!
If you find yourself thinking a lot about suicide seriously again, PLEASE ask your mom to hide the knives, pills and anything that you could hurt yourself with. It sounds stupid, but I would do this for ANYONE I could. It might save your life, which is your goal right now... Really, suicide isn't a logic decision making process- It's YOU fighting against YOUR SITUATION and your thoughts... YOU are not the one killing yourself- it's YOUR SITUATION. So, try to think of it like that. Would you let someone else barge into your house and murder you if you could stop them? Well, that's what your situation is trying to do to you... It's kind of stupid, but that's what always has helped me... And when you're fighting against your situation rather than fighting against yourself, it makes it a lot easier for you to find another way out and figure out how to cope with your situation.
If you need anything, just leave a comment or email me:)