GODDAMN WEBSITES!

I'm proud to say that when I type in "ways to commit suicide" or the like, I don't get as many hits as I did before when I was suicidal myself...  But they are still out there.  Now I mostly see them in forums, along with some degrading comments, so that really scares me.  I call them "death threads," because that's what they do- they kill people.  Ten people saying "don't do it," another ten calling names and provoking the suicide and two or three with info on what the creator of the thread asked- put it all together and what do you get?  A suicide.  It's rather heart-wrenching, and I always try to say something when I can to these people.  Sadly, I cannot type long messages on my computer, so I usually end up having my computer freeze on me and losing the page that the thread was on:(

And even more painful to come across are the Christian sites, condemning people to hell.  This is especially painful for me, because I am Christian myself.  However, I realize I am not God and I have no power to condemn someone to hell.  And if I did say such a thing to someone in a crisis, I'm only disappointing the Lord by murdering his children!!  Gah!  Why can't people get that???

Oh, and then there's the fake sites lying about horrible suicide failures and really obviously laughing at you for being so much pain you're attempting to end your life!  So to me, it's like saying "Hey, that guy's in a lot of emotional pain, so let's poke fun at him and make him cry!  Maybe then he won't kill himself!"

And last but not least, there's the people genuinely trying to help that just fail miserably...  They'll tell you your life isn't that bad, it will get better, to go scream in a pillow, etc.  Gah.  But at least there's not anymore sites that actually tell you how to kill yourself, at least.  One small step in the right direction, I guess:/